After a few days of being a mother, I know what everybody is talking about. It's crazy. I start to get really emotional at night, because of how much I love my little family. I don't want anything to change. It seems like I am less able to cope with these unwanted imminent changes at night. Being a mother is a whole new adventure, especially the breastfeeding part. I think (and pray) that I am starting to figure just a few things out and am able to be more comfortable. Sometimes I want to get in the car to visit friends and family, but the idea of putting Camden in that huge carseat all by himself when it is unfamiliar to him kills me, so . . . we stay at home. We have appreciated the privacy that we have been given so we can get to know our little family these first few days. Another idea that I hate is putting clothes on his beautiful little body. It seems so cruel. Hopefully by the time it gets cold outside I will be over this one, but for the moment nakedness is what we are all about in our house. Another issue that I am torn on is the use of Mylicon. I don't want to overuse it or have it as a crutch, but we have used it a few times, because it is so sad to see Camden fussy over gas. Any comments on this experienced mothers? I'm not sure I notice a difference when I use it or not. We have an appointment with the pediatrician on Tuesday, so I am hoping to get some good counsel from him. I am worried about the "appointment-ness" of the doctor, because I really have no control (at least I don't feel like I do, or realize I do, if I do) over when he is hungry, fussy, happy, sleep, etc. I told them I would be there at 11:15, but I have yet to abide by any sort of schedule with this child and hope I can get there within a reasonable range of 11:15. But that means I have to put him in his carseat (tears welling up in my eyes). Here are some recent pics.